220…220…220! That is the highest weight I’ve been.
It almost seems unreal! I was shocked when the nurse told me that number. I
wanted to cry, scream, and shout. I felt broken when she said 220 lbs. What had
I done to myself? How did I allow myself to balloon to this size? I was in
denial over my weight. What I saw in the mirror and what the scale said did not match up. I was told by loved ones "you carry your weight well." Thanks, but no thanks! I was too short to carry that amount of weight on my
frame.
It motivated me to start making changes, and then life got in the way
and I plateaued.
I began believing the messages of “girl you look great” and “you’ve lost a lot of weight” to make me complacent and comfortable with the changes I had made. I thought I did look good and I was feeling good at 190 lbs., but I wasn’t as healthy as I could be. My doctor told me to lose an additional 30 lbs., and I said okay. Piece of cake, I can do that. NOT! Since that conversation with my doctor I’ve gone up and down, up and down like a yo-yo. Do you have any idea how exhausting and emotionally draining that can be? If you don’t, be grateful! I am tired of it and that is why I began my journey to being fit at 40. It has been a process and one that has involved mental, emotional, physical, and spiritual endurance. I’ve got a ways to go, but I refuse to give up or back down from this challenge. I hope that each of you is striving to reach your goals just as I am. We’re all in this together. Be encouraged and know that you are not alone in your frustrations, challenges, or successes.
I began believing the messages of “girl you look great” and “you’ve lost a lot of weight” to make me complacent and comfortable with the changes I had made. I thought I did look good and I was feeling good at 190 lbs., but I wasn’t as healthy as I could be. My doctor told me to lose an additional 30 lbs., and I said okay. Piece of cake, I can do that. NOT! Since that conversation with my doctor I’ve gone up and down, up and down like a yo-yo. Do you have any idea how exhausting and emotionally draining that can be? If you don’t, be grateful! I am tired of it and that is why I began my journey to being fit at 40. It has been a process and one that has involved mental, emotional, physical, and spiritual endurance. I’ve got a ways to go, but I refuse to give up or back down from this challenge. I hope that each of you is striving to reach your goals just as I am. We’re all in this together. Be encouraged and know that you are not alone in your frustrations, challenges, or successes.
Peace and blessings,
Trinaa’
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